I am sure I have blogged about this before, but I really want to know, what is YOUR favorite worship song? 10,000 Reasons has catapulted to the top of the charts of all time favorite worship songs of our era. I have to say, 10,000 Reasons is NOT on the top of my list of worship songs. Surprisingly, many haven’t a clue. That is why I STILL continue to tell my testimony (and you should too). Just in this last week I have had the opportunity to tell about Trey and Jesus twice (one while having a nerve block on my neck – literally while in the OR…and it continued to post-op!). Back to 10,000 Reasons…
Sunday night we had Girls Night Out at Central Church. Our Sunday school class had reserved two tables to sit together for the evening. The topic was about mentoring and friendship. Before the speaker began we had a time of worship. When the first chord hit, I knew, and my head went down. I thought to myself, “Keep yourself together Lisa, keep yourself together.” I saw my friend Gina Johnson turn a little red, then standing next to me was Laurie Phillips and she began to cry. All of a sudden, my precious friend Treena Thomas ran up behind me and put her arms around me and we both just began to cry. A lady behind Laurie asked her, “Oh, has she lost her husband?” Laurie told her, “No, she is Trey Erwin’s mother.” See, not everyone knows his story and I realize not everyone will care to know it.
I am thankful my sweet friends know the meaning of 10,000 Reasons and what it means to our family and how it has impacted our life. I’m even MORE thankful that Matt Redman knew how much it meant to us and emailed us after Trey died. He wrote in an article, which I am attaching, that there are reasons he writes songs such as 10,000 Reasons and it’s not to win awards. Matt’s reward will be in heaven for the lives he has touched for his song that has caused people to worship. I received the article from an outside source after Trey died and was told that the person in the article “in the hospital bed” was Trey.
Laurie went on to say after the event was over that she doesn’t hear the song without thinking about us. I thought that was so sweet. I want people to remember Trey, but more importantly, I want them to the soak in the last verse of the song (which is the verse that Trey took his last breath):
And on that day when my strength is failing
The end draws near and my time has come
Still my soul will sing your praise unending
10,000 years and then forevermore.
Shouldn’t we live that way everyday? Will I still cry when I hear the song or sing it? Absolutely. It’s like most people with How Great Thou Art. Will I still need friends to surround me when I hear that first chord? You bet! Do I want you to let me know when you hear it on the radio or sing it in church? OF COURSE! Why? Because it’s not about me. It’s not about Trey. It’s about helping a friend. It’s about being His hands and feet. It’s about spreading the name of Jesus. If Trey doesn’t make you think of Jesus, his purpose on earth failed. And that should be our purpose also, when others look at us, they see Jesus.
I actually asked Trey’s friend, Tim Few, who is on staff at Central now, to warn me when we are doing 10,000 Reasons. Sometimes he can’t get to me in time and he will say, “Mama, I didn’t know till the last minute.” I’ll usually say, “It’s okay bud.” Some people have certain signs to help feel their loved ones near. For me, even though it is a sinking, heavy feeling, my Trey will always be near when we sing that song. I can’t always get the words out and I can’t always lift my hands in praise, but my heart…my heart is always with my boy and Jesus.
Worship. And let your heart be with Jesus. And please, please, always be a friend. Never judge and never assume. I’ve learned the hard way in the last four years. Selfless friends are hard to find. If you can find just one, you’ve found a jewel. You never know when those around you are hurting.