He knew. Jay. His neck just didn’t feel right to him. So Monday he made the call to West Clinic. Dr. Tauer said get him in on Friday and scan him.
Many times during the week his words were, “I don’t like this.” My thought was if I could take it from you just like I wanted to take it from Trey, I would.
February again. It comes every year. The time of year that memories of suffering and pain begin to flood my mind. They never cease. It’s like a reel to reel movie that keeps playing in my head and won’t shut off – but pain keeps adding to the movie.
Today, as Jay and I sat at West Clinic, my mind went back to the old location. The first day when Trey walked in Dr. Tauer’s office, he asked Trey if he was ready to fight this. Trey said let’s go.
Today, as I looked over at Jay he asked me if I was okay. Yes. I’m okay. But I saw the look in his eyes as he said again, “I don’t like this.”
Dr. Tauer walked in our patient room in a purple pullover. Yes, purple. I had to remark, of course, he had Trey’s color on. After hugs and handshakes, he said familiar words, “Well, the cancer is back in your neck.” I felt Jay slump.
We discussed how Jay is lucky that it is just localized in his neck, but there is one place at the base of his scar on his neck that they could not determine on the scan what it is. Dr. Tauer said Dr. Fleming, the surgeon, would be able to tell since he did the previous surgery.
We made a plan for Jay to see Dr. Fleming on Monday with probable surgery, possible radiation or the chemo pill, all of which is just up in the air until he sees Fleming and Fleming and Tauer talk. Dr. Tauer joked and told Jay he has to stop this. Then, on a more serious note, he asked about Collin and the rest of the family. I spoke up, was honest about the time of year, Collin, and other things going on in our lives. He said we have had enough. We agreed. I thought, from your lips to God’s ears!!
We don’t know what exactly Monday will bring, but we know we will handle it together as we have handled everything else – and Jay’s cancer journey for the last 23 plus years.
As we walked out the doors of West Clinic, Jay asked me again, “Are you okay?” I responded, “Yeh, I’m okay. You?” Jay said, “Yeh, it just stinks.”
Yes honey. Cancer does stink. Penning a line from one of my favorite movies:
“For twenty-three years I’ve been dying to tell you what I thought of you! And now…well, being a Christian woman, I can’t say it!” Auntie Em from The Wizard of Oz
We appreciate your prayers as we continue this path. I have bladder surgery on February 15 and Collin has his regular check-up at St. Jude on the 18th.
One thing we do know, God is good and always good in times of trouble. On this we can rely.
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Oh, Lisa. Your road has not been an easy one. But you continue walking one step at a time. And God is with you each step. Only He knows and only He can truly comfort you and give you peace. I pray for your strength – physical, mental, emotional and spiritual. I pray for Jays healing and Collin as well.
Thank you sweet friend. Your prayers mean so much! I’ll keep you posted!
Thinking of you all …prayers for good news Monday
Thank you Donna! We hope to get a surgery date soon!
Lisa,Jay and Collin, I am praying for all of you. May God keep you close .
Thank you Ms. Carlene!
Prayers going up for you and your family.
Thank you Carol! We appreciate it!
My prayers are with you and your family. My sister Cindy who is battling stage 4 kidney cancer is on immunotherapy and she’s like she was never sick. I pray for that right treatment for Jay, that he is as well.
Thank you Lisa! It is my prayer too! We need a cure for ALL cancers! Prayers for you and your family.
My sweet Erwins, I am petitioning the Father on your behalf! Never forget I love you MORE!
Love me some Laquita! Thank you for your prayers. Pray for your bug zapper. He has an MRI on his shoulder tonight and might be looking at surgery for him too.
Your family is our prayers. We pray for healing, stamina and encouragement. Love you you all
Thank you Debbie! Love ya’ll!
Always thinking of you and praying hard… #13. ❤️❤️❤️
Thank you Bobby! I really appreciate it. Hug your family tight! You know how this disease stinks!
Praying so hard.
Thank you SO much!
Praying for all of you. Any updates
Thank you so much! I will update a little later.
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